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　　　Never　mind　him；　Suslov　snarled。　Just　shoot　the　bastard！
　　　Very　well；　Andropov　said。　He　took　his　aim　carefully；　and　Zaitzev　was　unable　to　intervene；　despite　being　right　there。　Then　the　Chairman　squeezed　the　trigger。
　　　Zaitzev　was　back　on　the　street　now。　The　first　bullet　struck　a　child；　a　boy　on　the　priest's　right；　who　fell　without　a　sound。
　　　Not　him；　you　idiot…the　priest！　Mikhail　Suslov　screamed　like　a　rabid　dog。
　　　Andropov　shot　again；　this　time　hitting　a　little　blonde　girl　standing　at　the　priest's　left。　Her　head　exploded　in　red。　Zaitzev　bent　down　to　help　her；　but　she　said　it　was　all　right；　and　so　he　left　her　and　returned　to　the　priest。
　　　Look　out；　why　don't　you？
　　　Look　out　for　what；　my　young　rade？　The　priest　asked　pleasantly；　then　he　turned。　e；　children；　we're　off　to　see　God。
　　　Andropov　fired　again。　This　time　the　bullet　struck　the　priest　square　in　the　chest。　There　was　a　splash　of　blood；　about　the　size　and　color　of　a　rose。　The　priest　grimaced；　but　kept　going；　with　the　smiling　children　in　tow。
　　　Another　shot；　another　rose　on　the　chest；　to　the　left　of　the　first。　But　still　he　kept　going；　walking　slowly。
　　　Are　you　hurt？　Zaitzev　asked。
　　　It　is　nothing；　the　priest　replied。　But　why　didn't　you　stop　him？
　　　But　I　tried！　Zaitzev　insisted。
　　　The　priest　stopped　walking；　turning　to　look　him　square　in　the　face。　Did　you？
　　　That's　when　the　third　bullet　struck　him　right　in　the　heart。
　　　Did　you？　the　priest　asked　again。　Now　the　children　were　looking　at　him　and　not　the　priest。
　　　Zaitzev　found　himself　sitting　up　in　the　bed。　It　was　just　before　four　in　the　morning；　the　clock　said。　He　was　sweating　profusely。　There　was　only　one　thing　to　do。　He　rose　from　the　bed　and　walked　to　the　bathroom。　There　he　urinated；　then　had　himself　a　glass　of　water；　and　padded　off　to　the　kitchen。　Sitting　down　by　the　sink；　he　lit　a　cigarette。　Before　he　went　back　to　sleep；　he　wanted　to　be　fully　awake。　He　didn't　want　to　walk　back　into　that　dream。
　　　Out　the　window；　Moscow　was　quiet；　the　streets　pletely　empty…not　even　a　drunk　staggering　home。　A　good　thing；　too。　No　apartment　house　elevators　would　be　working　at　this　hour。　There　was　not　a　car　in　view；　which　was　a　little　odd；　but　not　so　much　as　in　a　Western　city。
　　　The　cigarette　achieved　its　goal。　He　was　now　awake　enough　to　go　back　to　sleep　afresh。　But　even　now　he　knew　that　the　vision　wouldn't　leave　him。　Most　dreams　faded　away；　just　like　cigarette　smoke；　but　this　one　would　not。　Zaitzev　was　sure　of　that。
　　　
　　　CHAPTER　10　…　BOLT　FROM　THE　BLUE
　　　He　had　a　lot　of　thinking　to　do。　It　was　as　if　the　decision　had　made　itself；　as　if　some　alien　force　had　overtaken　his　mind　and；　through　it；　his　body；　and　he　had　been　transformed　into　a　mere　spectator。　Like　most　Russians；　he　didn't　shower；　but　washed　his　face　and　shaved　with　a　blade　razor；　nicking　himself　three　times　in　the　process。　Toilet　paper　took　care　of　that…the　symptoms；　anyway；　if　not　the　cause。　The　images　from　the　dream　still　paraded　before　his　eyes　like　that　war　film　on　television。　They　continued　to　do　so　during　breakfast；　causing　a　distant　look　in　his　eyes　that　his　wife　noticed　but　decided　not　to　ment　on。　Soon　enough　it　was　time　to　go　to　work。　He　went　along　the　way　like　an　automaton；　taking　the　right　path　to　the　metro　station　by　rote　memory；　his　brain　both　quiescent　and　furiously　active；　as　though　he'd　suddenly　split　into　two　separate　but　distantly　connected　people；　moving　along　parallel　paths　to　a　destination　he　couldn't　see　and　didn't　understand。　He　was　being　carried　there；　though；　like　a　chip　of　wood　down　mountain　rapids；　the　rock　walls　passing　so　rapidly　by　his　left　and　right　that　he　couldn't　even　see　them。　It　came　almost　as　a　surprise　when　he　found　himself　aboard　the　metro　carriage；　traveling　down　the　darkened　tunnels　dug　by　political　prisoners　of　Stalin's　under　the　direction　of　Nikita　Sergeyevich　Khrushchev；　surrounded　by　the　quiet；　almost　faceless　bodies　of　other　Soviet　citizens　also　making　their　way　to　workplaces　for　which　they　had　little　love　and　little　sense　of　duty。　But　they　went　to　them　because　it　was　how　they　earned　the　money　with　which　they　bought　food　for　their　families；　minuscule　cogs　in　the　gigantic　machine　that　was　the　Soviet　state；　which　they　all　purported　to　serve　and　which　purported　to　serve　them　and　their　families。。。
　　　But　it　was　all　a　lie；　wasn't　it？　Zaitzev　asked　himself。　Was　it？　How　did　the　murder　of　a　priest　serve　the　Soviet　State？　How　did　it　serve　all　these　people？　How　did　it　serve　him　and　his　wife　and　his　little　daughter？　By　feeding　them？　By　giving　him　the　ability　to　shop　in　the　〃closed〃　shops　and　buy　things　that　the　other　workers　could　not　even　think　about　getting　for　themselves？
　　　But　he　was　better　off　than　nearly　everyone　else　on　the　subway　car；　Oleg　Ivan'ch　reminded　himself。　Ought　he　not　be　grateful　for　that？　Didn't　he　eat　better　food；　drink　better　coffee；　watch　a　better　TV　set；　sleep　on　better　sheets？　Didn't　he　have　all　the　creature　forts　that　these　people　would　like　to　have？　Why　am　I　suddenly　so　badly　troubled？　the　municator　asked　himself。　The　answer　was　so　obvious　that　it　took　nearly　a　minute　for　him　to　grasp　the　answer。　It　was　because　his　position；　the　one　that　gave　him　the　forts　he　enjoyed；　also　gave　him　knowledge；　and　in　this　case；　for　the　first　time　in　his　life；　knowledge　was　a　curse。　He　knew　the　thoughts　of　the　men　who　determined　the　course　his　country　was　taking；　and　in　that　knowledge　he　saw　that　the　course　was　a　false　one。。。　an　evil　one；　and　inside　his　mind　was　an　agency　that　looked　at　the　knowledge　and　judged　it　wrong。　And　in　that　judgment　came　the　need　to　do　something　to　change　it。　He　could　not　object　and　expect　to　keep　what　passed　for　freedom　in　his　country。　There　was　no　agency　open　to　him　through　which　he　could　make　his　judgment　known　to　others；　though　others　might　well　concur　with　his　judgment；　might　ask　the　men　who　governed　their　country　for　a　redress　of　their　grievances。　No；　there　was　no　way　for　him　to　act　within　such　a　system　as　it　existed。　To　do　that；　you　had　to　be　so　very　senior　that　before　you　voiced　doubts　you　had　to　think　carefully；　lest　you　lose　your　privilege；　and　so　whatever　consciences　you　had　were　tempered　by　the　cowardice　that　came　with　having　so　much　to　lose。　He'd　never　heard　of　any　senior　political　figure　in　his　country　standing　up　that　way；　standing　on　a　matter　of　principle　and　telling　his　peers　that　they　were　doing　something　wrong。　No；　the　system　precluded　that　by　the　sort　of　people　it　selected。　Corrupted　men　only　selected　other　corrupted　men　to　be　their　peers；　lest　they　have　to　question　the　things　that　gave　them　their　own　vast　privileges。　Just　as　the　princes　under　the　czars　rarely　if　ever　considered　the　effect　their　rule　had　on　the　serfs；　so　the　new　princes　of　Marxism　never　questioned　the　system　that　gave　them　their　place　in　the　world。　Why？　Because　the　world　hadn't　changed　its　shape…just　its　color；　from　czarist　white　to　socialist　red…and　in　keeping　the　shape；　it　kept　its　method　of　working；　and　in　a　red　world；　a　little　extra　spilled　blood　was　difficult　to　notice。
　　　The　metro　carriage　stopped　at　his　station；　and　Zaitzev　made　his　way　to　the　sliding　metal　door；　to　the　platform；　left　to　the　escalator；　up　to　the　street　on　a　fine；　clear；　late…summer　day；　again　part　of　a　crowd；　but　one　that　dispersed　as　it　moved。　A　medium…sized　contingent　walked　at　a　steady　pace　toward　the　stone　edifice　of　The　Centre；　through　the　bronze　doors；　and　past　the　first　security　checkpoint。　Zaitzev　showed　his　pass　to　the　uniformed　guard；　who　checked　the　picture　against　his　face　and　jerked　his　head　to　the　right；　signaling　that　it　was　all　right　for　him　to　enter　the　vast　office　building。　Showing　the　same　lack　of　emotion　as　he　would　any　other　day；　Zaitzev　took　the　stone　steps　down　to　the　basement　level　through　another　checkpoint　and　finally　into　the　open…bay　work　area　of　the　signals　center。
　　　The　night　crew　was　just　finishing　up。　At　Zaitzev's　desk　was　the　man　who　worked　the　midnight…to…eight　shift；　Nikolay　Konstantinovich　Dobrik；　a　newly　promoted　major　like　himself。
　　　〃Good　morning；　Oleg；〃　Dobrik　said　in　radely　greeting；　acpanied　by　a　stretch　in　his　swivel　chair。
　　　〃And　to　you；　Kolya。　How　was　the　night　watch？〃
　　　〃A　lot　of　traffic　last　night　from　Washington。　That　madman　of　a　president　was　at　it　again。　Did　you　know　th