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en　the　doors　swung　shut；　I　can　make　out　the　impression　where　the　body　landed。　The　patch　of　flagstone　has　an　unseemly　quality；　like　a　scrape　on　the　flesh　of　a　storybook　princess。　What　I　took　for　mud　in　the　spatter　of　impact；　I　begin　to　see　more　clearly。　Blacks　are　reds；　the　dirt　is　blood。　In　the　office　above；　there　is　only　darkness。
　The　ambulance　drives　off；　lights　and　sirens　fading　as　it　shuttles　onto　Nassau　Street。　I　stare　back　at　the　impression。　It　is　misshapen；　like　a　broken　snow　angel。　The　wind　hisses；　and　I　wrap　my　arms　around　my　sides。　Only　when　the　crowd　in　the　courtyard　begins　to　disperse　do　I　realize　that　Charlie　is　gone。　He　left　with　the　ambulance；　and　an　unpleasant　silence　has　gathered　where　I　expect　to　hear　his　voice。
　Students　are　slowly　disappearing　from　the　courtyard　with　hushed　voices。　〃I　hope　he's　okay；〃　Gil　says；　putting　a　hand　on　my　shoulder。
　For　a　second　I　think　he　means　Charlie。
　〃Let's　go　home；〃　he　says。　〃I'll　give　you　a　ride。〃
　I　appreciate　the　warmth　of　his　hand；　but　I　stand　by；　just　watching。　In　my　mind's　eye　the　man　falls　again；　colliding　with　the　earth。　The　sequence　fragments；　and　I　can　hear　the　crack　of　glass　breaking；　then　the　gunshot。
　My　stomach　begins　to　turn。
　〃e　on；〃　Gil　says。　〃Let's　get　out　of　here。〃
　And　as　the　wind　picks　up　again；　I　agree。　Katie　disappeared　somewhere　in　the　shuffle　of　the　ambulance；　and　a　friend　of　hers　standing　nearby　tells　me　that　she　went　back　to　Holder　with　her　roommates。　I　decide　to　call　her　from　home。
　Gil　places　a　gentle　hand　between　my　shoulders；　and　guides　me　toward　the　Saab　that　sits　in　the　snow　near　the　auditorium　entrance。　With　that　unfailing　instinct　to　know　what's　best；　he　turns　up　the　heat　to　a　fortable　level；　adjusts　the　volume　on　an　old　Sinatra　ballad　until　the　wind　is　a　memory；　and　with　a　little　burst　of　speed　that　assures　me　of　our　impunity　before　the　elements；　heads　down　campus。　Everything　behind　us　fades　gradually　into　the　snow。
　〃Did　you　see　the　person　who　fell？〃　he　asks　quietly　once　we're　on　our　way。
　〃I　couldn't　see　anything。〃
　〃You　don't　think。　。　。〃　Gil　shifts　forward　in　his　seat。
　〃Think　what？〃
　〃Should　we　call　Paul　and　make　sure　he's　okay？〃
　Gil　hands　me　his　cell　phone；　but　there's　no　service。
　〃I'm　sure　he's　fine；〃　I　say；　fidgeting　with　the　phone。
　We　hang　in　the　silence　of　the　cabin　for　several　minutes；　trying　to　drive　the　possibility　out　of　our　minds。　Finally　Gil　forces　the　conversation　elsewhere。
　〃Tell　me　about　your　trip；〃　he　says。　I'd　flown　to　Columbus　earlier　in　the　week　to　celebrate　finishing　my　thesis。　〃How　was　home？〃
　We　manage　a　patchy　conversation；　hopping　from　topic　to　topic；　trying　to　stay　above　the　current　of　our　thoughts。　I　tell　him　the　latest　news　about　my　older　sisters；　one　a　veterinarian；　the　other　applying　for　a　business　degree；　and　Gil　asks　about　my　mother；　whose　birthday　he's　remembered。　He　tells　me　that；　despite　all　the　time　he　devoted　to　planning　the　ball；　his　thesis　still　managed　to　get　written　in　those　last　days　before　the　economics　department　deadline；　when　I　was　gone。　Gradually　we　wonder　aloud　where　Charlie　has　been　accepted　to　medical　school；　guessing　where　he　intends　to　go；　since　these　are　matters　about　which　Charlie　is　modestly　silent；　even　to　us。
　We　bear　south；　and　in　the　murky　night　the　dormitories　hunker　on　either　side。　News　of　what　happened　at　the　chapel　must　be　spreading　through　campus；　because　no　pedestrians　are　visible；　and　the　only　other　cars　sit　silently　in　lots　on　the　shoulder。　The　drive　down　to　the　parking　lot；　a　half　mile　beyond　Dod；　feels　almost　as　long　as　the　slow　walk　back　up。　Paul　is　nowhere　to　be　seen。
　
　Chapter　12
　
　There's　an　old　saw　in　Frankenstein　scholarship　that　the　monster　is　a　metaphor　for　the　novel。　Mary　Shelley；　who　was　nineteen　when　she　began　writing　the　book；　encouraged　that　interpretation　by　calling　it　her　hideous　progeny；　a　dead　thing　with　a　life　of　its　own。　Having　lost　a　child　at　seventeen；　and　having　caused　her　own　mother's　death　in　childbirth；　she　must　have　known　what　she　meant　by　it。
　For　a　time　I　thought　Mary　Shelley　was　all　my　thesis　subject　had　in　mon　with　Paul's：　she　and　the　Roman　Francesco　Colonna　（who　was　only　fourteen；　some　scholars　argued；　when　the　Hypnerotomachia　was　written）　made　a　pretty　couple；　two　teenagers　wise　beyond　their　years。　To　me；　in　those　months　before　I　met　Katie；　Mary　and　Francesco　were　time…crossed　lovers；　equally　young　in　different　ages。　To　Paul；　standing　nose　to　nose　with　the　scholars　of　my　father's　generation；　they　were　an　emblem　of　youth's　power　against　the　obstinate　momentum　of　age。
　Oddly　enough；　it　was　by　arguing　that　Francesco　Colonna　was　an　older　man；　not　a　younger　one；　that　Paul　made　his　first　headway　against　the　Hypnerotomachia。　He'd　e　to　Taft　freshman　year　as　a　bare　novice；　and　the　ogre　could　smell　my　father's　influence　on　him。　Though　he　claimed　to　have　retired　from　studying　the　ancient　book；　Taft　was　eager　to　show　Paul　the　foolishness　of　my　father's　theories。　Still　favoring　the　notion　of　a　Venetian　Colonna；　he　explained　the　strongest　piece　of　evidence　in　favor　of　the　Pretender。
　The　Hypnerotomachia　was　published　in　1499；　Taft　said；　when　the　Roman　Colonna　was　forty…five　years　old；　that　much　was　unproblematic。　But　the　final　page　of　the　actual　story；　which　Colonna　posed　himself；　states　that　the　book　was　written　in　1467…when　my　father's　Francesco　would　only　have　been　fourteen。　However　unlikely　it　was　that　a　criminal　monk　had　written　the　Hypnerotomachia；　then；　it　was　outright　impossible　for　a　teenager　to　have　done　it。
　And　so；　like　the　curmudgeonly　king　inventing　new　labors　for　young　Hercules；　Taft　left　it　to　Paul　to　shoulder　the　burden　of　proof。　Until　his　new　protégé　could　shrug　off　the　problem　of　Colonna's　age；　Taft　refused　to　assist　any　research　premised　on　a　Roman　author。
　It　nearly　defies　explanation；　the　way　Paul　refused　to　buckle　under　the　logic　of　those　facts。　He　found　inspiration　not　only　in　Taft's　challenge；　but　in　Taft　himself：　though　he　rejected　the　man's　rigid　interpretation　of　the　Hypnerotomachia；　he　brought　the　same　relentlessness　to　his　sources。　Whereas　my　father　had　let　inspiration　and　intuition　guide　him；　searching　mainly　in　exotic　locales　like　monasteries　and　papal　libraries；　Paul　adopted　Taft's　more　thorough　approach。　No　book　was　too　humble；　no　location　too　dull。　From　top　to　bottom；　he　began　to　scour　the　Princeton　library　system。　And　slowly　his　early　conception　of　books；　like　a　boy's　conception　of　water　who　has　lived　his　whole　life　by　a　pond；　was　dethroned　by　this　sudden　exposure　to　the　ocean。　Paul's　book　collection；　the　day　he　left　for　college；　numbered　slightly　under　six　hundred。　Princeton's　book　collection；　including　more　than　fifty　miles　of　shelves　in　Firestone　Library　alone；　numbered　well　over　six　million。
　The　experience　daunted　Paul　at　first。　The　quaint　picture　my　father　had　painted；　of　happening　across　key　documents　sheerly　by　accident；　was　instantly　exploded。　More　painful；　I　think；　was　the　questioning　it　forced　onto　Paul；　the　introspection　and　self…doubt　that　made　him　wonder　if　his　genius　was　simply　a　provincial　talent；　a　dull　star　in　a　dark　corner　of　the　sky。　That　upperclassmen　in　his　courses　admitted　he　was　far　beyond　them；　and　that　his　professors　held　him　in　almost　messianic　esteem；　was　nothing　to　Paul　if　he　couldn't　make　headway　on　the　Hypnerotomachia。
　Then；　during　his　summer　in　Italy；　all　that　changed。　Paul　discovered　the　work　of　Italian　scholars；　whose　texts　he　was　able　to　wade　through　thanks　to　four　years　of　Latin。　Digging　into　the　definitive　Italian　biography　of　the　Venetian　Pretender；　he　learned　that　some　elements　of　the　Hypnerotomachia　were　indebted　to　a　book　called　Cornucopiae；　published　in　1489。　As　a　detail　in　the　Pretender's　life；　it　seemed　unimportant…but　Paul；　ing　at　the　problem　with　the　Roman　Francesco　in　mind；　saw　much　more　in　it。　No　matter　when　Colonna　claimed　to　have　written　the　book；　there　was　now　proof　that　it　was　posed　after　1489。　By　then；　the　Roman　Francesco　would've　been　at　least　thirty…six；　not　fourteen。　And　while　Paul　couldn't　imagine　why　Colonna　might　lie　about　the　year　he　wrote　the　Hypnerotomachia；　he　realized　that　he'd　answered　Taft's　challenge。　For　better　or　worse；　he　had　entered　my　father's　world。
　What　followed　was　a　period　of