rh.royalassassin-第22部分
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at the cost of political advantages。 It was unheard of； for the King…in…Waiting to marry for love。 I'm sure you've heard over and over how foolish a thing it was。〃
〃And I'd always wondered if he'd cared。〃
〃It cost him；〃 Chade said quietly。 〃I don't think he regretted his decision。 But he was king…in…waiting。 You don't have that latitude。〃
Here it came。 I'd suspected he'd know everything。 And useless to hope he'd say nothing。 I felt a slow flush steal up my face。 〃Molly。〃
He nodded slowly。 〃It was one thing when it was down in town； and you were more or less a boy。 That could be ignored。 But now you're being seen as a man。 When she came here asking after you； it started tongues wagging and folk speculating。 Patience was remarkably agile at hushing the rumors and taking charge of the situation。 Not that I'd have kept the woman here； had it been left to me。 But Patience handled it well enough。〃
〃The woman 。。。〃 I repeated； stung。 If he'd said 〃the whore〃 I couldn't have felt it more sharply。 〃Chade； you misjudge her。 And me。 It began as a friendship； a long time ago； and if anyone was at fault in 。。。 how things went； it was me； not Molly。 I'd always thought that the friends I made in town； that the time I spent there as ‘Newboy' belonged to me。〃 I faltered to a halt； hearing only the foolishness of my words。
〃Did you think you could lead two lives？〃 Chade's voice was soft but not gentle。 〃We belong to the King； boy。 King's Men。 Our lives belong to him。 Every moment； of every day； asleep or awake。 You have no time for your own concerns。 Only his。〃
I shifted slightly； to look into the fire。 I considered what I knew of Chade in that light。 I met him here； by darkness； in these isolated chambers。 I had never seen him out and about around Buckkeep。 No one spoke his name to me。 Occasionally； disguised as Lady Thyme； he ventured forth。 Once we had ridden together through the night； to that first awful Forging at Forge。 But even that had been at the King's mand。 What did Chade have for a life？ A chamber； good food and wine； and a weasel for a panion。 He was Shrewd's older brother。 But for his bastardy； he would be upon the throne。 Was his life a foreshadowing of what mine was to be？
〃No。〃
I hadn't spoken； but as I looked up into Chade's face he guessed my thoughts。 〃I chose this life； boy。 After a mishandled potion exploded and scarred me。 I was handsome； once。 And vain。 Almost as vain as Regal。 When I ruined my face； I wished myself dead。 For months I did not stir out of my chambers。 When I finally went forth； it was in disguises； not Lady Thyme； not then； no。 But disguises that covered my face and my hands。 I left Buckkeep。 For a long time。 And when I came back； that handsome young man I had been was dead。 I found myself more useful to the family； now that I was dead。 There is much more to that story； boy。 But know that I chose the way I live。 It was not something Shrewd forced me into。 I did it myself。 Your fixture may be different。 But do not imagine it is yours to mand。〃
Curiosity prodded me。 〃Is that why Chivalry and Verity knew of you； but not Regal？〃
Chade smiled in an odd way。 〃I was a sort of a kindly step…uncle to the two older boys； if you can believe it。 I watched over them； in some ways。 But once I was scarred； I kept myself even from them。 Regal never knew me。 His mother had a horror of the pox。 I think she believed all the legends of the Pocked Man； harbinger of disaster and misfortune。 For that matter； she had an almost superstitious dread of anyone who was not whole。 You see it in Regal's reaction to the Fool。 She would never keep a clubfooted maid or even a serving man with a missing finger or two。 So。 When I returned； I was never introduced to the lady； or the child she bore。 When Chivalry became king…in…waiting to Shrewd； I was one of the things revealed to him。 I was shocked to find he recalled me； and had missed me。 He brought Verity to see me that evening。 I had to scold him over that。 It was difficult to make them understand they could not e calling on me anytime they chose。 Those boys。〃 He shook his head and smiled at his memories。 I can not explain the twinge of jealousy I felt。 I called the conversation back to myself。
〃What do you think I should do？〃
Chade pursed his lips； sipped his wine； and thought。 〃For now； Patience has given you good advice。 Ignore or avoid Molly； but not obviously。 Treat her as if she were a new scullery maid； courteously； if you encounter her； but not familiarly。 Do not seek her out。 Devote yourself to the Queen…in…Waiting。 Verity will be glad of your distracting her。 Kettricken will be glad of a friendly face。 And if your intent is to win permission to marry Molly； the Queen…in…Waiting could be a powerful ally。 As you divert Kettricken； watch over her as well。 Bear in mind there are those whose interests do not support Verity having an heir。 Those same ones who would not be enthused about your having children。 So be wary and alert。 Keep your guard up。〃
〃Is that all？〃 I asked； daunted。
〃No。 Get some rest。 Deadroot was what was used on you； by Regal？〃 I nodded and he shook his head； narrowing his eyes。 Then he looked me squarely in the face。 〃You are young。 You may be able to recover； mostly。 I've seen one other man survive it。 But he trembled the rest of his life。 I see the small signs of it on you yet。 It will not show much； except to those who know you well。 But do not overtire yourself。 Weariness will bring on tremblings and blurred vision。 Push yourself； and you will have fits。 You do not want anyone to know you have a weakness。 The best course is to conduct your life in such a way that the weakness never shows。〃
〃Was that why there was elfbark in the tea？〃 I asked needlessly。
He raised an eyebrow at me。 〃Tea？〃
〃Perhaps it was the Fool's doing。 I awoke to food and tea in my room 。。。。〃
〃And if it had been Regal's doing？〃
It took a moment for the realization to dawn。 〃I could have been poisoned。〃
〃But you weren't。 Not this time。 No； it was neither I nor the Fool。 It was Lacey。 There is someone deeper than you credit。 The Fool discovered you； and something possessed him to tell Patience。 While she was flustering； Lacey quietly ordered it all done。 I think that privately she considers you as scatterbrained as her mistress。 Give her the slightest opening； and she will move in and organize your life。 Good as her intentions are； you cannot allow that； Fitz。 An assassin needs privacy。 Get a latch for your door。〃
〃Fitz？〃 I wondered aloud。
〃It is your name。 FitzChivalry。 As it seems to have lost its sting with you； I will use it now。 I was beginning to weary of boy。〃
I bowed my head。 We went on to talk of other things。 It was an hour or so until morning when I left his windowless chambers and returned to my own。 I went back to bed； but sleep eluded me。 I had always stifled the hidden anger I felt at my position at court。 Now it smoldered within me； so I could not rest。 I threw off my blankets and dressed in my outgrown clothes； left the Keep； and walked down into Buckkeep Town。
The brisk wind off the water blew damp cold like a wet slap in the face。 I pulled my cloak more tightly around myself and tugged up my hood。 I walked briskly； avoiding icy spots on the steep roadway down to town。 I tried not to think； but I found that the brisk pumping of my blood was warming my anger more than my flesh。 My thoughts danced like a reined…in…horse。
When I had first e to Buckkeep Town； it had been a busy； grubby little place。 In the last decade it had grown and adopted a veneer of sophistication； but its roots were only too plain。 The town clung to the cliffs below Buckkeep Castle； and when those cliffs gave way to the rocky beaches； the warehouses and sheds were built out on docks and pilings。 The good deep anchorage that sheltered below Buckkeep attracted merchant vessels and traders。 Farther to the north； where the Buck River met the sea； there were gentler beaches； and the wide river to carry trading barges far inland to the Inland Duchies。 The land closest to the river mouth was susceptible to flooding
