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state　of　affairs　between　them？　An　extraordinary　confusion　
of　emotion　was　beginning　to　get　the　better　of　him；　
when　Mrs。　Hilbery；　who　had　been　conscious　of　a　sudden　
pause　in　the　conversation；　and　had　looked　wistfully　at　
her　daughter　once　or　twice；　remarked：　

“Don’t　stay　if　you　want　to　go；　Katharine。　There’s　the　
little　room　over　there。　Perhaps　you　and　Ralph—”　

“We’re　engaged；”　said　Katharine；　waking　with　a　start；　
and　looking　straight　at　her　father。　He　was　taken　aback　by　
the　directness　of　the　statement；　he　exclaimed　as　if　an　
unexpected　blow　had　struck　him。　Had　he　loved　her　to　see　
her　swept　away　by　this　torrent；　to　have　her　taken　from　
him　by　this　uncontrollable　force；　to　stand　by　helpless；　
ignored？　Oh；　how　he　loved　her！　How　he　loved　her！　He　
nodded　very　curtly　to　Denham。　

“I　gathered　something　of　the　kind　last　night；”　he　said。　

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“I　hope　you’ll　deserve　her。”　But　he　never　looked　at　his　
daughter；　and　strode　out　of　the　room；　leaving　in　the　minds　
of　the　women　a　sense；　half　of　awe；　half　of　amusement；　at　
the　extravagant；　inconsiderate；　uncivilized　male；　outraged　
somehow　and　gone　bellowing　to　his　lair　with　a　roar　which　
still　sometimes　reverberates　in　the　most　polished　of　draw
ingrooms。　Then　Katharine；　looking　at　the　shut　door；　
looked　down　again；　to　hide　her　tears。　

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The　lamps　were　lit；　their　luster　reflected　itself　in　the　polished　
wood；　good　wine　was　passed　round　the　dinner
table；　before　the　meal　was　far　advanced　civilization　had　
triumphed；　and　Mr。　Hilbery　presided　over　a　feast　which　
came　to　wear　more　and　more　surely　an　aspect；　cheerful；　
dignified；　promising　well　for　the　future。　To　judge　from　
the　expression　in　Katharine’s　eyes　it　promised　something—
but　he　checked　the　approach　sentimentality。　He　
poured　out　wine；　he　bade　Denham　help　himself。　

They　went　upstairs　and　he　saw　Katharine　and　Denham　
abstract　themselves　directly　Cassandra　had　asked　whether　
she　might　not　play　him　something　—some　Mozart？　some　
Beethoven？　She　sat　down　to　the　piano；　the　door　closed　
softly　behind　them。　His　eyes　rested　on　the　closed　door　
for　some　seconds　unwaveringly；　but；　by　degrees；　the　look　
of　expectation　died　out　of　them；　and；　with　a　sigh；　he　
listened　to　the　music。　

Katharine　and　Ralph　were　agreed　with　scarcely　a　word　
of　discussion　as　to　what　they　wished　to　do；　and　in　a　

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moment　she　joined　him　in　the　hall　dressed　for　walking。　
The　night　was　still　and　moonlit；　fit　for　walking；　though　
any　night　would　have　seemed　so　to　them；　desiring　more　
than　anything　movement；　freedom　from　scrutiny；　silence；　
and　the　open　air。　

“At　last！”　she　breathed；　as　the　front　door　shut。　She　told　
him　how　she　had　waited；　fidgeted；　thought　he　was　never　
ing；　listened　for　the　sound　of　doors；　half　expected　to　
see　him　again　under　the　lamppost；　looking　at　the　house。　
They　turned　and　looked　at　the　serene　front　with　its　gold
rimmed　windows；　to　him　the　shrine　of　so　much　adoration。　
In　spite　of　her　laugh　and　the　little　pressure　of　mockery　
on　his　arm；　he　would　not　resign　his　belief；　but　with　
her　hand　resting　there；　her　voice　quickened　and　mysteriously　
moving　in　his　ears；　he　had　not　time—they　had　not　
the　same　inclination—other　objects　drew　his　attention。　

How　they　came　to　find　themselves　walking　down　a　street　
with　many　lamps；　corners　radiant　with　light；　and　a　steady　
succession　of　motoromnibuses　plying　both　ways　along　
it；　they　could　neither　of　them　tell；　nor　account　for　the　
impulse　which　led　them　suddenly　to　select　one　of　these　

wayfarers　and　mount　to　the　very　front　seat。　After　curving　
through　streets　of　parative　darkness；　so　narrow　that　
shadows　on　the　blinds　were　pressed　within　a　few　feet　of　
their　faces；　they　came　to　one　of　those　great　knots　of　
activity　where　the　lights；　having　drawn　close　together；　
thin　out　again　and　take　their　separate　ways。　They　were　
borne　on　until　they　saw　the　spires　of　the　city　churches　
pale　and　flat　against　the　sky。　

“Are　you　cold？”　he　asked；　as　they　stopped　by　Temple　Bar。　

“Yes；　I　am　rather；”　she　replied；　being　conscious　that　
the　splendid　race　of　lights　drawn　past　her　eyes　by　the　
superb　curving　and　swerving　of　the　monster　on　which　she　
sat　was　at　an　end。　They　had　followed　some　such　course　in　
their　thoughts　too；　they　had　been　borne　on；　victors　in　
the　forefront　of　some　triumphal　car；　spectators　of　a　pageant　
enacted　for　them；　masters　of　life。　But　standing　on　
the　pavement　alone；　this　exaltation　left　them；　they　were　
glad　to　be　alone　together。　Ralph　stood　still　for　a　moment　
to　light　his　pipe　beneath　a　lamp。　

She　looked　at　his　face　isolated　in　the　little　circle　of　
light。　

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“Oh；　that　cottage；”　she　said。　“We　must　take　it　and　go　
there。”　

“And　leave　all　this？”　he　inquired。　

“As　you　like；”　she　replied。　She　thought；　looking　at　the　
sky　above　Chancery　Lane；　how　the　roof　was　the　same　
everywhere；　how　she　was　now　secure　of　all　that　this　lofty　
blue　and　its　steadfast　lights　meant　to　her；　reality；　was　it；　
figures；　love；　truth？　

“I’ve　something　on　my　mind；”　said　Ralph　abruptly。　“I　
mean　I’ve　been　thinking　of　Mary　Datchet。　We’re　very　near　
her　rooms　now。　Would　you　mind　if　we　went　there？”　

She　had　turned　before　she　answered　him。　She　had　no　
wish　to　see　any　one　tonight；　it　seemed　to　her　that　the　
immense　riddle　was　answered；　the　problem　had　been　
solved；　she　held　in　her　hands　for　one　brief　moment　the　
globe　which　we　spend　our　lives　in　trying　to　shape；　round；　
whole；　and　entire　from　the　confusion　of　chaos。　To　see　
Mary　was　to　risk　the　destruction　of　this　globe。　

“Did　you　treat　her　badly？”　she　asked　rather　mechanically；　
walking　on。　

“I　could　defend　myself；”　he　said；　almost　defiantly。　“But　

what’s　the　use；　if　one　feels　a　thing？　I　won’t　be　with　her　a　
minute；”　he　said。　“I’ll　just　tell　her—”　

“Of　course；　you　must　tell　her；”　said　Katharine；　and　now　
felt　anxious　for　him　to　do　what　appeared　to　be　necessary　
if　he；　too；　were　to　hold　his　globe　for　a　moment　round；　
whole；　and　entire。　

“I　wish—I　wish—”　she　sighed；　for　melancholy　came　
over　her　and　obscured　at　least　a　section　of　her　clear　vision。　
The　globe　swam　before　her　as　if　obscured　by　tears。　

“I　regret　nothing；”　said　Ralph　firmly。　She　leant　towards　
him　almost　as　if　she　could　thus　see　what　he　saw。　She　
thought　how　obscure　he　still　was　to　her；　save　only　that　
more　and　more　constantly　he　appeared　to　her　a　fire　burning　
through　its　smoke；　a　source　of　life。　

“Go　on；”　she　said。　“You　regret　nothing—”　

“Nothing—nothing；”　he　repeated。　

“What　a　fire！”　she　thought　to　herself。　She　thought　of　
him　blazing　splendidly　in　the　night；　yet　so　obscure　that　
to　hold　his　arm；　as　she　held　it；　was　only　to　touch　the　
opaque　substance　surrounding　the　flame　that　roared　upwards。　


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“Why　nothing？”　she　asked　hurriedly；　in　order　that　he　
might　say　more　and　so　make　more　splendid；　more　red；　
more　darkly　intertwined　with　smoke　this　flame　rushing　
upwards。　

“What　are　you　thinking　of；　Katharine？”　he　asked　suspiciously；　
noticing　her　tone　of　dreaminess　and　the　inapt　
words。　

“I　was　thinking　of　you—yes；　I　swear　it。　Always　of　you；　
but　you　take　such　strange　shapes　in　my　mind。　You’ve　
destroyed　my　loneliness。　Am　I　to　tell　you　how　I　see　you？　
No；　tell　me—tell　me　from　the　beginning。”　

Beginning　with　spasmodic　words；　he　went　on　to　speak　
more　and　more　fluently；　more　and　more　passionately；　feeling　
her　leaning　towards　him；　listening　with　wonder　like　a　
child；　with　gratitude　like　a　woman。　She　interrupted　him　
gravely　now　and　then。　

“But　it　was　foolish　to　stand　outside　and　look　at　the　
windows。　Suppose　William　hadn’t　seen　you。　Would　you　
have　gone　to　bed？”　

He　capped　her　reproof　with　wonderment　that　a　woman　
of　her　age　could　have　stood　in　Kingsway　looking　at　the　

traffic　until　she　forgot。　

“But　it　was　then　I　first　knew　I　loved　you！”　she　exclaimed。　


“Tell　me　from　the　beginning；”　he　begged　her。　

“No；　I’m　a　person　who　can’t　tell　things；”　she　pleaded。　
“I　shall　say　something　ridiculous—something　about　
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